''Why Didn't You Hug Me?'' [Phan one-shot]

The definition of a hug is to clasp or hold one closely in the arms as an act of affection.

A hug is a simple gesture that can change so much. It shows your love for someone. Letting them know you will always be there for them, no matter how ruff the water may get. There are different kinds of hugs. Some are platonic. Just a friendly hug to someone close in your life. Others are more intimate. Those hugs are the best. They're a special kind of affection, shared with a person who is more special to you than life itself.

Dan and I have never been big on PDA. Especially with the chance of getting caught by a fan. However, it was just him and I in the BBC lounge. (Well, unless you include the camera guys and the photographers that take pictures every once in a while.) We were doing the annual Dan vs. Phil challenge. This week's challenge was the posture obstacle course.

Dan did relatively well compared to clumsy me. The books fell off my head for what felt like the hundredth time. I pouted slightly as Dan lightly chuckled. He gave me an apologetic smile afterwards, putting a hand on my shoulder. Forgetting everything for a moment, I opened my arms, wanting a quick hug. I then felt Dan lightly push his palm into my shoulder as a warning there were cameras watching us. Honestly, I was crushed. I know it wasn't because he didn't want to. It was just because of our relationship that we plan to keep secret; just until we're ready to come out. I brushed it off, pretending that I wasn't about to hug the fluff out of Dan.

I was somewhat exasperated that Dan wouldn't do such a facile thing. Even if the fans saw, we could've just say it was platonic. On the contrary, the hardcore shippers probably wouldn't buy it. I kept a smile on my face and a cheerful tone in my voice for the fans, but mostly for Dan. I didn't want him to fret about why I was so flustered over a simple thing.

Once we got home from our show, I ran up to my room. Dan probably knows something's up. He can read me like a book, literally. I heard footsteps make their way to my room. I sat on the edge of my bed, waiting for my impending doom. It wasn't long before Dan was in my room. He stood at the foot of my bed as he gave me a questioning look. Trying to act innocent, I cocked my head to the side.

"What's wrong?" He finally asked. I gulped, looking towards my bed covers.

"What do you mean?" He walked over to the bed, sitting down next to me. Dan wrapped his right arm around my shoulders, pulling me closer to him.

"Please don't lie to me. I know you, Phil Lester, like the back of my hand. Now, what's wrong."

"Why didn't you hug me?"

"What?"

"At the show, during Dan vs. Phil. I went to hug you, but....." My words trailed off. I looked up at Dan. I was expecting him to be peeved about such a vacuous topic. Instead, he looked considerate and sympathetic. Dan gave a small smile before opening his arms. I quickly embraced him, enjoying the comfort his hugs brought me.

"I'm so sorry, Phil. I should've just stop being so vain about what would the fans would think." He paused, pulling me back slightly to look into my eyes. "When really all that really matters is you."

I couldn't stop the huge grin from forming on my face as I placed a swift kiss on his cheek.

"Thanks, Dan. And I'm sorry for making a such fuss over a small thing." Dan giggled.

"What?" I tried to give a puzzled look, but failed as I started to laugh as well. I can't help it. His laugh is contagious.

"If we continue at this rate, we'll be apologizing all night." I lightly punched his shoulder. Dan gave a playful smirk before hug-tackling me to the bed. We laughed. I'm not sure for what reason. We just....laughed. After a minute, we calmed to a moderate level; smiles still lingering on our faces. I lifted my gaze to meet Dan's. His tan fingers were lazily playing with my hair.

"But seriously, Dan. We don't have to come out just yet. I just want to be sure we're both ready." His fingers stopped moving, traveling down to my chin. He tilted my face up enough to give a quick kiss

"Anything for my little lion."